Sigh...

Still hard. Still actually thinking about not having a wedding. Still wishing I hadn't gotten myself into such a terrible situation with student loans. Still wishing I had held down a "real" job for more than 16 months in the last 6 years so that I could have been paying more than the minimum on my loans and so that I would have more than $0.00 in the bank. Still hoping I can have a reception for about $4,500 (yes, I hear the uproarious laughter, too).